One For You

To My Beloved,

Been wondering am i worth it... am really the one only for you...  The color of my sky now is grey, been missing you so much... i dont want to message you right now coz i afraid that im bothering you and i will be annoying you right now, dont know your mood and i waited and waited... and you did replied but the message seems cold... i replied with all my warmth to you... and resolve to not think too much coz now im all alone... im listening to music just now and a particular song played... it makes my tears dropped and i rush to quiet place and cried my heart out... i cannot hide my sadness in my heart... coz i been missing you so much till no words can describe... this song really reflect my heart... scare you no longer love me anymore =(

I cried so hard... and i wanna go home right now coz i need smth to hug and embrace... where have our smiling face gone to? I recall all the sweet memories with you...

Dear, if you happen to read this,
have you been wondering why i always ask the same question to you? am i your true happiness? i did smth wrong? coz i reli love you and care for you, maybe i too care and love you the wrong way?.... i want you to be happy too even if your decision hurts me bad... ive been a bad bf coz i doubted you so many times... and i even doubted my own feelings sometimes... i realised that without you im nothing... only you can fill my empty heart... and the only thing im clinging on is the promises that you gave me, You asked me to stay with you no matter wad, and im willing to coz i promised you too i will be with you forever because after all we been together.... Dont treat me cold... im same like you i have feelings too dear... i cant be happy coz its cold... like the way i treat you with full of passion... i understand ure busy and what not... juz that we dont want it to affect our relationship...   I wanna understand more from your side... i been a burden to you coz i havent understand you enough... i will learn dear to understand you more, i noe im not a perfect guy....

Im Sorry for all the things i done to you, you have the right to be angry at me coz of my stubborn feelings.... i resolved that i dont want you to suffer sadness with me and i will let you do anything u wanted and i will waited patiently for you... i wan you to stay with me forever like u promised to be with me and love me and protect me... after all im all alone till eversince you came to my life baby.. i appreciate you the most and still love you no matter how you treat me.....

i really cant afford to lose you... Im Sorry Baby.....